Tuesday, June 12, 2012
The past is too disgusting.
The future is yet to be interesting.
Stop looking at the back.
But moving forward forces me to bring along something. Can I just leave it behind?
Cause I wanted to start anew.
God. Let us forgive and forget.
Its a mistake that can be erased, I can even erase it myself.
I don't want to bring the false dreams forward. I don't want to reconstruct the tainted paintings.
I want to re-draw.
Erase everything and re-draw.
But if one of the painters refused, what shall I do?
The choice is mine.
How can I let it holds me back?
But the past is not to be forgotten.
It taught me how to drive carefully towards the future.
The more I learn from it, the more I realize how disgusting I've been.
The more I feel like leaving it behind, the more I want things to vanish.
The more I want to start anew.
I hope, my choice of turning a new leaf, wouldn't leave any souls hurt.
Please don't be hurt and understand.
I'm pretty sure, it was a false dream. It was fake. It was tainted. It's dirty.
Please understand and let's pray.